Seems like a lifetime I’ve been working on them, these pockets I’ve crafted.
They have to be just right. I can’t afford to lose anything they might hold.
Table scraps, tidbits, and leftovers. Perhaps even a little token on occasion.
I worry that the pockets won’t hold. I can’t lose the things I find. They are all I have.
One day, while searching for crumbs, He came along. He started to follow me everywhere.
I thought He wanted to take what was in my pockets. I shied away.
Out of the blue He brought me a gift. I tried to stuff it down in my pockets and He asked me why I was doing that.
I told Him that I didn’t have much and needed to keep everything I got in those pockets, where I could keep an eye and hand on what was mine.
He asked me if I was going to open the gift before putting it away.
I looked in the box. I didn’t know this gift. I asked what it was.
He told me it was more.
More what?
He laughed and said, it will always be more than you could need or want.
That confused me. I didn’t understand more. I had never felt what more was like.
I didn’t know what to do with more. Maybe I should craft deeper pockets.
He said more doesn’t fit in a pocket.
I had no other place to put more.
He suggested I put it in my heart.
What if it falls out and I lose it?
Oh, it will fall out, He exclaimed. That’s what more does.
I didn’t like where this was headed.
Won’t I need more though?
Oh, yes, of course you will need more. You will always need more.
Then how do I keep it?
You keep it by letting it go and perhaps even one day choosing to give it away.
But, but, uh…. I am so needy. What will I do after I give more away?
He said no matter how much more I need, I shall always have it.
He said, Beloved, I am the maker of more. You don’t need pockets for scraps anymore. I will give you more, as you make room for more, by giving more away.
My pockets are starting to fray. I don’t keep much in them anymore. I used to feel safe when I put my hands down in them and felt the few things I had.
I may not need them at all soon.
I’m full most of the time. No matter how much more I give away, I end with more than I started with.
He was right. He is the maker of more. He is the giver of more.
Oh Kris, I so needed this today. Isn’t our God amazing? I am so grateful that He uses you to speak truth into our lives. I love and miss you.
That’s good stuff right there!
Wow. That hit home.